I want my grandma to come home....I'm tired of being sad...

I feel annoyed and I can't pin point what is going on with me. I guess I'm just annoyed because I'm bored. I just wish I could pick up and go somewhere. I wish I had access to a beach. I wish I could do something.

I wish I had my own place. I'm in the decorating mood. I want to paint a room and decorate it. I'm such a nerd sometimes.

So anyone else ready for a vacation yet?

I was reading Belinda's post about Thanksgiving. I too love that holiday. I love it for the time I spend with those I care about and I love it because those I don't care about usually will slink back into the darkness and I won't have to deal with them! I know that last part is a bit mean, but hey if it makes me happy then yea!

I also love Thanksgiving for the food. Oh man I love turkey more than life itself...MMMM! I love having enough leftovers for a week. I love the late evening turkey sandwiches! I love cranberry sauce! I love the tradition my family has. We have Thanksgiving and then that following Saturday we all get back together for left overs and they taste just as good as they were on Thanksgiving!

I'm also looking forward to the 4 day weekend we have from work. I really feel that I need this time away from that place. I can feel myself slipping and making stupid errors. I'm also thinking about taking a couple of days off in Feb seeing as how it will be May before we have another long weekend. So I'm thinking about a long weekend in  Feb and maybe April. I'm going to take a week in June and then save the other week until maybe the week before or after my birthday and either take the full week or just take a couple of long weekends here and there.

This weekend was fantastic! Friday evening Ash and I dressed up as a musician (him) and a crack head (me). On Saturday I surprised Dave and Mirb and dressed up as an old dude. It was a good time.

Today Ash had to work late so he came over and we ate breakfast and just hung out and watched some TV. He felt bad that he had to work and I was kinda pissed about it, but you know what...we really need the money if we are going to move. This is why I'm going to be writing a few sports stories next weekend for the paper. It will be nice to write again. I've missed it. I want to get back into it but I don't know where to start or who or how to send things in to places.

I decided that I'm going to join Valley Chorus in the spring. I feel that I need to do something to keep myself busy. In the fall it's alumni band an this winter I'm going to teach myself how to play guitar. I'm going to have Ash teach me the basics and then I'm damn determined to play. I'm not planning on playing for people, but I need a stress reliever and music always helps. So that leaves the spring for valley chorus. I like my summers to be free and easy!

Ok this entry is all over the place...I'm gonna stop..

I ended up leaving work at noon today. I slept all day and I'm still tired. I also managed to keep a temp of 100 until about an hour ago when it backed down to 98. I'm falling apart...oh and my lower back feels like someone kicked it. I put on this stuff that feels like my back is on fire...fun?

UGH!



GO YANKEES!!

My dad has a cold..it's only a matter of time before I get one too...joy...

I need a hug...

What was the last concert you attended?
They Might Be Giants...about 3 weeks ago in Ithaca

How many people were there?
A lot! I went with three other people myself.

What bands have you seen in concert the most, and how many times?
I've seen Incubus 3 times, Ben Folds and Green Day are tied at twice each!

Do you have any set lists? From what bands?
One from Incubus, One from Ben Folds, and MANY more...I also collect guitar picks and lost count on how many I have of those.

Are there any CDs in close proximity to you? Which ones?
the closest CD to me right now is a burnt copy of American Idiot...I needed to put it on Frank (my ipod)

What band are you in the mood to see live right this second?
Incubus or Ben Folds...either would be pretty cool.

Have you ever been on a tour bus? 
nah never wanted to either 

Have you ever partied with a band?
I did manage to meet Gym Class Heroes in between parties in the Slums waaaaaaaay back in the day!

How many states/provinces have you been to concerts in?
New York, PA, NJ, Co....4

What bands did you see live the month of May?
zippo...

What CD are you addicted to at the moment?
I haven't really been listening to a CD...but I have been listening to a lot of 311 and AFI lately....

Who is one band that you used to like, but now you can't stand?
No Doubt...if they are still even a band anymore. They just piss me off!

Have you ever been on anyone's guest list?
nah

Last band person that you got a picture with?
Holy jeebus I can't even remember...maybe Bowling For Soup...

Do you consider yourself a groupie?
no

If you were to name a boy and a girl after any band... what would you name them?
I really have no idea to be honest....

How old were you when you went to your first concert?
11

Who was it?
I went to see Aerosmith with one of my friends. It was the beginning of my obsession for concerts!

Which artists haven't you seen yet that you want to see?
Hmm.....to be honest I have seen all of the bands that I have always wanted to see. I guess I would like to see AFI again...it was bad the last time I saw them so I wanted to give them another chance since they are one of my favorite bands

Are you wearing a band shirt right now?
Nope wearing my "Frank's hot dog stand" shirt!

What band do you own the most merch of? (excluding music)
By far Incubus...I have numerous shirts and hoodies.

Do you ever do anything crazy at shows?
No..but I do play a mean air piano at Ben Folds shows! 

What are your favourite venues to go to shows at?
I love to see a band or musician in a small venue. it just seems more initmate and it's just all around nicer.

What band do you have the most performance pictures of?
It's a tie between Incubus in Rochester and Simple Plan...

Would you ever get a tattoo representing a band?
The tattoo I have is off of an AFI album. I didn't get it to represent the band. I actually got it to represent a friend who I lost. I have had this tattoo for 5 years and I love it more every year.

How many concerts do you average a year?
1 or 2

Upcoming shows?
wishing Ben Folds would come around here again

List every band (or artist) you've EVER seen live, no matter how obscure.

Now just so you know I may be forgetting MANY of them...but these are the ones that I remember right now:
Aerosmith, Incubus, Green Day, Simple Plan, Yellowcard, Something Cooproate, Vanilla Ice, AFI, Survivor, 3 Doors Down, Fuel, Gym Class Heroes, Zebrahead, Rancid, Bad Religion, Flogging Molly, Dropkick Murphys, 30 Seconds to Mars, Tsunami Bomb, Ben Folds, They Might Be Giants....oh man so many more but it is 10pm...sleep

Came and went...it was...fun and interesting. I'll post with pics as soon as I can steal some from people.

I feel like dog shit tonight. I have been coughing since Friday with little relief. I feel tired and I feel like I have an on and off fever. There is someting going around lately and right now my brother has it so it's only a matter of time that I caught it. Oh and I can't call in if I'm sick tomorrow so I better suck it up and deal.

I have my 3 month evaluation tomorrow. I think I could barf about it....well..it's 7:30..I'm going to bed in the hopes of feeling better tomorrow.

I was reading yahoo news just a minute ago. It was about how parents think Obama is going to brain wash their children. It makes me sick. Here we are with a damn good president who I along with MANY worked our asses off campaigning for so that he could get in this position, and a bunch of ass clowns are ruining it. He wants to speak to the children during school about the importance of a good education and how important it is to be in school and to do your best. Oh golly gee is he going to brain wash them into being just another asshole on this planet? Probably not, that's up to the kids parents. So let the man speak to your kids and stop being so fucking up tight about the situation. I'm so tired of these uptight people trying to ruin everything this man is working towards. The man wouldn't be the PRESIDENT if the MAJORITY of the American people didn't believe in him. Get over it..he is the President whether you like it or not.

When he made his speech he asked for all the political parties to try and set aside their differences to make some of these important decisions pass much faster, but the house of reps and congress have been dragging their feet for way too damn long and it's getting old.

Oh and another thing...I SUPPORT THE HEALTH CARE REFORM!

Good night!

Current Mood: annoyed

I love lazy weekends. Ash was supposed to have today off but is working due to one of his coworkers having a death in the family. I wasn't upset about it considering it's supposed to rain all weekend. We did plan on going to Newtown Battlefield..but I guess once again it will have to wait until next year. That seems to be the story everytime we want to go there.

So this week was a pain in the ass. With Kim (former coworker) quitting with no notice, I've been doing the job of 2 people. Then to top it off, all of the computers shit the bed. So I've pretty much been looking forward to this weekend since about 8am Monday morning. Yesterday one of the other secretarys had to go to a doctors appointment in Elmira. Her appointment was delayed for a few hours and she called in. It wasn't a big deal...but our manager never told us until one of the nurses called to find out what was going on. I ended up not getting a lunch until nearly 2pm..I was livid.

I spoke to one of the ladies in provider services. She urged me to but in my paperwork to get in over there when my year is up. She said that she knows I would like it there and I would be putting my degree to good use since most of everything will use what I have learned. She also said it is a HUGE step in the right direction if I want to get into coorporate comminications in the near future. I need to make more money in order to get things moving with my real dream which is the radio station. People may think I'm kidding..but damn it I'm not!

So life in general has been ok. I try and forget about work when I walk out of the door and it's been easy to do. At the paper I was taking work home with me every night. I had to write stories that would take me sometimes in to the night to write. With the clinic..once it's 5 or 6 I'm out the door and forgetting about the day.

One of the doctors hates me. But she is a huge bitch so I've been brushing it off and just doing my job as best as I can. The bitch had the nerve to say I ignored her when she told me something. It's like high school...but worse. People don't hesitate to destroy you...or pass rumors or talk shit. I just stay out of it. I talk to people in cardiac surgery and the Cardiovascular lab more then in cardiology. I don't trust anyone.

I've been asking for prayers lately to help me keep my sanity while at work. I have three more months of being nervous about constantly being fired. So while many think I'm dying..it's just helping me keep focused. I may not be the most religious person in the ways of going to church..but I know the prayers are helping me keep sane.

So there is my life....boring eh?

Current Mood: bored

There is one thing to look forward to you tomorrow at work....

I'll get to see my mom at around 3!!!!! Then I'll get to take a 15 minute break and walk with her to her appointment:)

First: If you've been tagged, write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.

Second: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

Lots of pillows or just one?
I like to have lots of pillows...currently I have four and two are body pillows

kind of books do you read?
I love to read books that are turned into movies. I love books like Memoirs of a Geisha, Girl Interrupted, Carrie, Virgin Suicides, White Olenader, and Speak. I also love The Ridiculous Race.

What are your most awesome skills?
I think I am a good friend. I am loyal through and through. I'm a good listener...and I pretty much love my sense of humor:)

What's your occupation?
Medical Office Assistant/Secretary in Cardiology...that's right I am pulling double duty:)

What's really creepy?
Spiders, bats, clowns...

What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
I'm not sure....

What flavour ice cream would you choose right now?
chocolate chip cookie dough

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
livejournal, myspace, cnn.com, perezhilton.com, facebook, gmail

What was the last thing you bought?
dinner for me and my friend Shane:)

What was the cutest thing you've seen today?
Ash:) Although I just want to see my Frankie...he has a tick

Do you get cravings? If so, what do you crave?
Sometimes it's sugar or salt.

What do you do to change your mood?
write...or talk it out with Ash or Sarah

What is your zodiac sign?
Leo

Do you want to learn another language?
I would love to learn Italian...so bad

Five things you can't live without
My family, friends, Ash, dogs, and the arts.

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
stop treating me like shit and start treating me the way you want to be treated

What are you looking forward to?
Aug. 22nd to be with my friends!!

Say something to the person who tagged you: Belinda - You are such an amazing friend and I love you sooooo much. Thank you for always being there for me and I am so proud to call you my friend for all these awesome years. Love you!

I tag: Erica, Colleen, Holly, Miriam, and anyone who would like to do this!

I'm feeling out of sorts today.


I guess I just need to get over what I have been feeling all day yesterday. Instead of dwelling on all of the negatives I should list the positives in my life.

- I have wonderful parents
- I have many wonderful family members
- My bestfriend Trifecta (Mirb, Sarah, and Tony) are three of the best people in the world!
- My closest friends will always be there for me no matter the distance. I always feel like I could call them at the drop of a hat.
- Frank makes me feel like I'm the greatest dog owner ever. Bella is the sweetest cuddle bunny!
 - Ash, despite being listed a little low on this list, means the world to me. He knows just want to say or do to make me feel better. He challenges me just about everyday. He teaches me something new everyday and he loves me more and more everyday.
- My job may be a HUGE pain in the ass at times, but the feeling of helping someone is awesome.
- I love the hours of my job
- I love learning something new everyday at my job.
- The providers I am responsible for are two awesome people. They try and take some time during the week to educate me which is cool.

I may not know where I'll be in the future or what i will be doing, but I know that the most important people will always be in my life.

I'm going to keep count of how many times I get my head bitten off today...I'm hoping not too many...I'd like to come home in a decent mood. I'd LOVE to come home and cuddle with Ashola.

I love love love love love him.

I feel like my weekends just fly right by me. This weekend I managed to do nothing and enjoy every minute of it. Friday Ash and I just hung out and enjoyed being around one another. It was nice to just sit around and talk. Saturday we went to Rita's for some frozen custard and today I went to the final Sunday mass at St. Joseph and then went to my aunts.

I'm already in bed which is kinda depressing...

I'm not looking forward to this week.....The job isn't that bad..it's just VERY stressful...doctors are picky people.

The morning is awesomely awful already...I get to begin my day by walking to work in thunder and lightning....wonderful....I also have to miss MJ's memorial service which I'll get to watch sometime this week...


RIP MJ...

A few days ago i was able to have a conversation with one of the trifecta members and you know who you are. This person said something that kinda got to me. Now I am NOT mad at this person at all. We were talking about Michael Jackson and I was saying how sad I still was that he is gone. This person said something in the lines of "Well I figured you would still be upset about it because you are the type of person who can obsess over things." I was kinda taken aback with this. So here is how I am feeling right now about Michael Jackson's passing since I haven't had 15 minutes to myself. Maybe I will stop "obsessing" over it.

When I was about 3 or a little bit older I remember sitting in front of the TV with my cousins and Michael Jackson's Thriller video came on. I was TERRORFIED by it but yet I still remember dancing to it. This is one of the few vivid early childhood memories I have. I remember singing along (as best as a 3 or so year old could). I remember my Godmother buying me the album as the first musical album I ever received (aside from Alvin and the Chipmunks). I rocked that bitch on my Fisher Price record player everyday (with the help of my brother or parents of course). When I wasn't listening to it it was being played on my parent's record player and eventually I was given the tape. I also rocked t-shirts and this sweet belt that I still have to this day. When Bad came out I was given the tape almost the day it was released. I was also given the coolest Michael Jackson doll ever and I still have this doll at my Godmother's house. I knew every word to every song on the album. This was a cycle that continued for every MJ album that came out.

When I came home from work last week I saw on the news that he went into cardiac arrest and I thought to myself..This is Michael frikin Jackson he will make it. He's a strong guy...well as strong as I thought he was...I guess the truth was he was in a lot of emotional pain that stems far beyond anyone knew.

When the news was released that he was gone I called Andre and just talked to someone I knew would be feeling the same way.

Talking to other people...they just don't get it. Michael Jackson begane my love and yes...obsession wih music. Michael Jackson was an idol to me for many years. When he went through his bad time a few years back..I was one of the few that didn't believe it. Still to this day NOTHING has been proven. It makes me ill to hear these jokes...these heartless jokes that people are cracking. I've been hearing them for over a week now and more and more I am getting angry.

So there...that's my say...I'm still sad about him being gone...I will be for a long time...and if anyone has an issue about it..then simply ignore me. Don't walk up to me and try and crack a joke..don't think I'm pathetic...just move along.

Thanks..

Current Mood: accomplished

If I hear one more Michael Jackson death joke I swear I am going to beat the piss out of that person!!!!!!!

Current Mood: pissed off